Brick Stones Unknown

Promise of a possibility
Wandering into brick stones unknown, and I
Break into a thousand shores, sure I
Ripped inside a tainted mind, following a
Promise of a path

Fingers losing their tension, their strength
Falling into toys of the player
Puppet on a string
I knew the master but he told me
I fly too high
Scolds me for my decisions, and I
Leave him with excuses to justify the
Quiet murmur in my mind

Walls swimming into papers on walls and
Air bubbling in clouds of unreality
Something escapes me
What words? And what feels?
Who feels? Who blurs
the fashion of the blacklight
Beaming on brisk fantasies and
Fade

Out My Window

Shades of inner gray color the words I cannot find,
sharing three sides of the same story
Blue cuts into gray skies, just as I
Swallow and sing each breathy lyric and meet
the disillusioned me bursting into ballad but
stay above the surface

Sentence.

Distilled water

Illuminates the thoughts to

Save two lives and

I

Leave light spirits heavy in the

Lateness of the hour

Unless I

Sacrifice roots for

Sentiments uncontrollably falling

Into a pattern

Of deliberate, sloppy

Nothingness.

Carefree Caresses & Careful Goodbyes

Sidestepped you drive off into a
Delusional sunset
Dawn breaks over your face and then
Nothing?

I'll say I understand,
you'll pretend to comprehend
the myriad of overflowing thoughts
Crowding the abyss of my mind and thinking
Shall I dwell? Nay,
I shant, for the weak dwell in the
crevasses of their overly complicated complications

Apathy, that's the word
They knew it best
I'd spent much time drawing your description
But it's simple, you see

Simultaneously I cannot state
the reasons I want to hear
trickling down a chocolate river
rich with delicacy and deliberation

Ah, that's the feeling that once was
Now falling behind
A child running to its mother,
only to find
a stern engraving in a carved stone
carefully crafting the history in my mind

Carefree caresses turn to careful goodbyes
Stuck in the throat of time
Find the reasons to say
Dreams aren't always the way
To clear yesterday's today

Sentiments you shared not
But realize I don't stop
to smell the flowers from last week

It's time to say
This lovesong is done
Best wishes, good luck, good day

Hunger For Joy

Dried lips, milky teeth, and a calm stare
Countdown to the day I
Dream, not think, of a blue plane
Sharing some kind of hue to
Make a heart beat carefully
Calculated traces of silver
Lining the chambers of my heart
Thinking, "Where go you?"

Simper, and breathe louder
and softer
and sweeter
and simpler
Simply to see
me

No use, infiltrating the leaves of my thoughts
Writing a sensitive symphony of
Brown sugar candies holding out
For me.

Resolution for the strength to carry the wits of a thousand laughs,
a million seconds saved
Wondering if I should conceal, reveal, or lie

Flimsy things these heartstrings are
Plucking a chord inside a youthful, eternal, forever spring
But see, life is stronger than emotions,
or so I convince myself

These days, I'll scale the surface of this screen
Water stays still and
Vibrations will be stifled
By the hunger for
Joy.

Good Luck Goodbye

Words

The words I would say

The words I planned to say

But so are you

Too many thoughts

Climb inside the abyss in my mind

Searching for a softer soul,

A softer lie,

A never goodbye

Tension runs up my sleeves

And down my arms

And then repreives

I tried

To find empty thoughts on an empty plane of

Geometry I can't explain

What are the things I mean to say?

To leave my lips peacefully

Grace shadows underneath my sleet

And I,

I see mirages

Drown the paintings I last

Saw in a somewhat silhouette

They fall

Maybe I fall?

But maybe I don't-

I never sent away the key

I never tried to take your sleep

Just rested my head on your mind

And never, never, keep...

Let the monstre eating away at my fears

Find the drain and make a home down there

Somehow-

I'll remember truth

Somehow-

I'll remember you

I'll get to you even if nowhere

Freezes my mind

And takes the hammer, shatters it to pieces

Will you pick me up?

Will you whispers words of silent reverie?

And forget a good luck goodbye

It's coming back...

To me.

Sometimes

Sometimes I'm tired

Too tired to be strong

Can I get someone to be my strength?

Dammed enough tears,

Chastised the shriveled figure

A saltwater pool of ache

Sometimes I won't blame myself

Taint another soul

And anoint me the angel

White as the clouds I lay my dreams on

Hard words wreck the mind

Another lie, another love to caress

And maybe there'll be bandages

Sometimes I wish for vulnerability

Gray shades the smile lines in my frown

Save another tomorrow for today

Erase last night's REM nightmare

A boy in a corner carrying his life

On the edge of a thread

And threading me into his misery

Not mine to take

Sometimes I don't want the whole truth

Laugh at the fantasy of complete positivity

Cry at the thought of honesty

Wait, whose honesty? These eyes read

Between the lies sifting through the

Electronic system their thoughts process in

I know, I know, I know their truth

Ignorance instead calms my soul

Reaffirms my heart her her undying duty

Die another tomorrow, live double today

Weep some kind of yesterday,

And keep history forever ingrained in that

Crevice in the mind you'll never access,

But absolutely must.

Sometimes I want care,

Helpless little girl I never was

I was too busy hammering the steel

Into my chest's shining armor

What's that? I wear the chain metal?

Do you think me the knight?

You'd think with pretty eyes

And soulless mind I'd be the man,

A gallantry of idiocracy,

Don't insult the egotistic complex

You believe me to possess

My reputation's taught you well, no less

Sometimes I want understanding

The inner meaning I conceal in an

Aquamarine façade I colored

One hazy summer afternoon

Blindness afflicts your eyes, your mind

Unable to penetrate the gold in my heart

The gems I hide, reveal only to the deserving,

The ones who swim close to the border

Between appearance and reality

Sometimes I want to be.